Heavy Heart

My  thoughts are filled with the loss of our furry friend, Freddy, over at Furry Bottoms' blog. My heart breaks for his human family and furry brother. I know this will be a very hard time for them and a loss around the holidays is even more difficult.

It puts my thoughts in a sad, dark place. It's hard to focus in the dark, recesses of my mind. My mind goes from subject to subject. Like...

I've been having a fear of loosing a family member, my husband, to be specific. I can't explain why but sometimes I just feel he will slip away from me to Heaven without notice.

Then I think on our poor Snuffy who seemed to have seizures every 10 minutes last night. I don't know HOW she is hanging on. I don't want her to leave but I know eventually she must.

Lastly, I think of another kind of loss. The kind of loss where the people are still on earth but are lost from your life. My friends and I are frequented by the presence of people who have rationalized their seemingly benign behavior and continue it, despite the fact that the continued behavior proves another type of death.

Deep breath....YET....while the agony of loss is hard, there are SO MANY things for which to be thankful. If we wipe away the tears from our eyes, we can see the blessings that are with us. Our other pets, our loyal friends, our remaining family, our God....they are the reasons we are still here on this earth. There is a reason, a purpose, for our existance. It may be hard to see when we are sad but the reasons are there if we focus on the 'light' instead of the 'dark'.

Be blessed.